Saturday, February 21, 2009
S.O.BSave-Our-Blog!!!
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11:22 PM
imagine a bridge in between two rocky cliffs, broken and torn, with ropes left dangeling*.. you are clinging unto one of the ropes for dear life. looking down is a shocking pile of knifes that threaten to pierce through your skins at any time you lose grip... for a few hours you're struggling.. for a few days you're hoping to get rescue..
soon, that thought is dismissed as the hours grow.. you look to the circumstances and see that there isn't any more hope.. the knives look so tempting..
what do you do?
you kept holding unto the rope.. you bite your teeth in agony, your body cries out in pain.. you keep telling yourself that you must perservere on! Just when your hopes gets high again, the rope snaps, and it swung till u hit the side of the cliff. it's a long way up to the top of the cliff.. and your muscles are aching like crazy.. you want to just give up..
do you?
you start rock climbing it, taking each step a step at a time. soon u are progressing, halfway to the top... 3/4.. almost there.. and suddenly u slipped and slid down again, deeply scratching ur skin till it bled... your hands, albows, whole body is bruised.. what now?
Emotions starts kicking in.. all alone, thinking that it's just one life and no one will care, no one will bother if u fell, failure of reaching to the top because everything u do seem to be wrong made you all the more depressed.. crying seems to be the only solution, and falling to the pit of knives seems like the only way out.. because u think u will never be able to go to the top anymore..
i ask myself..
Who am i to say im incapable?
Who am i to give up just because i keep failing to reach the top?
Who am i to say that i'm not strong enough to handle this or that?
Then what about God?
By saying that i'm incapable, i'm rejecting His word, "I am capable of all things through Christ who strengthens me."
By giving up, i'm not placing my hopes on God..
is it me or God who determines i'm strong enough? God, who is even able to use the small David to kill Goliath, who did miracles in all the earth, if He say i'm strong, i'm strong.. but it's whether or not i believe it..
everyday is a choice.. everyday is a challenge.. to perservere on, no matter what you're facing, or to just go on a rollercoaster ride on your emotions..
L.I.F.E = Living In Faith Everyday...
Pearl~
10:14 PM
Saturday, February 7, 2009
How ever tired i am, i guess im compelled to type this down.. i can't really think straight right now.. my mind is blurred.. I’ll try my best..
Throughout the whole orientation period in SAJC, i can say that God has convicted me of many things.. Including my purpose in that school. Even though i appealed to ACJC, i told God, if it is His will for me to be in SAJC, let it be..
I guess im learning how to sacrifice my desires to grow more intimately with God. Even my choices of CCAs.. wanted to join Dance or ODAC... but when i found out that they have very tight schedules, it got me thinking whether it will tire me so much that i will compromise my Quiet Time or even my weekends in church. As much as i love ODAC or Dance, i love God more..
So i guess right now it's between Student Council or Saints for Christ.. but i'm compelled to SFC..
had iconstruct meeting today with Eunice, Cheryl and WeiPing.. really refreshing.. got me thinking about relationships.. and to Pastor FuMan's preaching.. i realised then.. even relationships that we have should glorify God as well. off course that's a general statement. but what are the ways? Pastor FuMan asked us," What's the significance of the bridegroom kissing the bride on the wedding day? will it be the first kiss they share?" It shocked me a little..
“Is the relationship build to strengthen each other in their walk with God, moving on to a marriage? Or is it to just satisfy our feelings?”
Ultimately, I believe relationships should be about God as well..
In conclusion, SERVE is good!!! I learnt a lot, matured in my thinking, brought me to let go of my past.. encourage all to join!!!
The drowsiness is kicking in… want to sleep… but I know there’s something else I want to share.. but I’m getting tired…
It hurts.. from head to toe… first time i got a line bruise.. on my knee.. hai...
Pearl~
11:26 PM
SASA a.k.a MISS RANDOM
